I have come to realize that I am a geek. Not that this is a new concept, but I have come to realize it recently in a very real way, this blog. Well not exactly this blog alone but this website and other server platforms that I maintain. You see, I have spent many hours configuring, testing, tweaking, hacking, and just generally fiddling around with various content publishing platforms.  This Blog has podcasts, RSS syndication, Statistic plugins, advertisment managment systems, and all kind of gadgets, gizmos, and doodads. I have worked very hard to build a state of the art, top of the line, delivery method. But what makes it kind of sad, is that in the last 2ish years that this site has in its relatively current form, there less than 36 articles. Most of which have been cross posts from my friend Todd at www.theoechnology.com.

None of that is really new. What really struck me today like a ton of bricks is how very much I have lived my christian experience like I have used this site. I have procrastinated, stressed, felt guilty, felt ambivalent, felt excited,and even felt motivated. I have pondered,  developed, planned, prepared, staged, and even arranged.  But when it really came down to it, I didn’t really DO anything about it.

It seems so often we put so much time, energy, effort and even money into getting ready to meet folks needs and share Christ with people. But, when the time comes, we don’t really DO anything. Sure we sometimes do this or that to ease our guilt, or because we think it’s the right thing to do ( like those few posts smattered here and there), but in the end, have we really changed much?

It dosent have to be that hard. God made each one of us in a unique way. He built each one of us with a toolbox that includes our spiritual gifts, out talents, our interests, our passions, and our personalities. That toolbox includes who we are and what we love to do. How much of those tools effect who and how we interact with other people? All of them. God has uniquely equipped each one of us with  characteristics that uniquely effect our sphere of influence. In other words, God BUILT you so that who you are effects those around you.  If we simply embrace who God created us to be and DO something with it, we will be fulfilling God’s purpose AND our passion. 

So, I’m a geek. Thats how God made me, thats what I love. I connect with other geeks, so thats where God wants me to go. The real change is in my choice to be purposeful in my intentions, AND my actions.  I may remain a failed blogger, I am choosing to learn from my failures as a Christian, to go, and to DO.